Hiya Doll! Sorry I’ve been away so long. Been working on myself. Had to take some me time. See that’s the hardest part of clinical depression, there isn’t a magic pill that will make all the dark times vanish. Ya ya, I know that you know this already (shrugs shoulders and flips bangs out of eyes), well …. give me sometime to warm up to this … it’s been a minute you know. ( wink wink …giggle giggle).
I have had so much going on since the last I wrote. I’ve had some breakthroughs , a few breakdowns, had to step away from a few friends, had to step away from a few family members, have had 2 medical scares, have converted to vegan… missed the cheese and went off the wagon (more on my vegan journey … hey, HEY!!! Put the phone done and step away from PETA’S number will ya …. just wait for the blog post – it’s coming and there is no need to get Big Brother involved I promise you that) , Converted my makeup world into Cruelty Free ( broke my heart to say good bye to some on my most treasured pieces but gave me joy when I realized … I GET TO SHOP FOR NEW STUFF!! … reviews on all the new goodies will be posted soon) , Have had 3 seriously bad illnesses that seemed to have wanted to try and kill me, and have had 2 very bad Fibro flairs.
So basically what I mean is ….. LIFE SUCKED BIG HAIRY MONKEY NIPPLES!! (Don’t you give me that face I know it’s BALLS , but as I am female … how would I know what life would be like if it just up and sucked hairy monkey testicles???)
Whilst stuck in bed and the couch and anywhere else that I could lay down comfortably, I did some reading (reviews of some awesome reads to come) , binge watched the shit out NETFLIX and PLEX TV (Holy sweet baby pickles , STRANGER THINGS was amazing!!! So were a few other shows , I’ll have to do a blog post on some of my favorites soon) , collected same amazing makeup finds (some new to me , some new to the world…. yes already , did ya not see the part where I said I would be reviewing said products? ) , and dealt with my beloved BFF Gabby’s death anniversary again ( I still have trouble reconciling the fact that she is truly gone from the world, and still can’t understand … no that’s not entirely true… still can’t bring myself to admit this was a suicide).
So yea, lots going on … but the important thing is that I dug deep and pulled through it… Even when my soul wanted me to give up the ghost, I just couldn’t do it… too much to be thankful for, people that I love way too damn much to leave behind …. I stuck the landing and pulled my way out of the darkness , one small step at a time.
I can’t promise that I’m healed , hell anyone with any kind of depression will tell you that you will never fully heal, but I’m better than I was, just taking it hour by hour.
Well darlings thanks for taking a break and peaking in on this spoonie’s makeup bag and until next time … remember to try and save a spoon for a bit of lip-gloss.