Hey doll hey. How’s your day/night going? Great I hope. I’m having a hard time with my Fibromyalgia the past few days.
My wrists and ankles are swollen and sore. My hips feel like the bones are grinding together. My muscles feel like I have been running sprints all day.
I have energy but because of the amount of pain I’m in (I feel like my pain level is around 8) I can’t do anything today.
Thank goodness I cooked extra last night so that all I have to do is reheat the left overs.
For dinner yesterday I made Pollo Guisado (Puerto Rican Chicken Stew) and homemade French Yeast Rolls.
Hubby and my mother truly loved dinner last night and that made me feel happy. I rested most of yesterday just so that I had enough energy to make the rolls. I think the next time I make these I’ll make a double batch and freeze a pan of them for future meals.
I’m not really sure what brought on this newest fibro flair, I only know that I am so much pain that not even sleep seems to give me relief. I woke about every 1 to 1/2 last night due to the pain.
The only thing I can think of is that since it’s our rainy season the barometric pressure is just wreaking havoc on my immune system.
Well… I just wanted to touch base with you and let you know that I’m still here… just having some truly horrible pain days …. I should be back into the swing of things soon … I just have to wait this out until it passes.
I hope you enjoy the rest of your day/night and that you are in good spirits and health.
Hey doll hey. How’s your day/night going? Great I hope. I’m having a super bad Fibromyalgia day … low energy and high pain.
I have to take a few days off from playing in my makeup.
Today I’m focusing on washing my makeup brushes that have piled up.
This is about 2 months of makeup brushes and even though I still have a ton of clean and ready to be used brushes I don’t like to let my dirty brush pile get too far out of control.
I use a dish tub that I purchased at the dollar store filled 1/3 of the way with hot tap water and 48 ounces of boiling hot water from the stove.
I use a bar of Dove Pink Beauty Bar to cleanse my brushes… I also use this soap to clean my beauty sponges and Face Halos daily. It’s super gentle and smells amazing… leaving my brushes and sponges smelling nice even after a few uses of them.
To scrub my brushes clean I use this mesh strainer that I purchased at the dollar store. It makes getting my brushes clean so much easier and faster. I just get the brushes wet and rub them in the soap and then run the brushes all over the inner surface of the mesh strainer and then dip my brushes into the dish tub to rinse them clean.
Once they are clean I rub them over a clean towel and place them on another clean towel to dry over night.
Normally I don’t let my brushes pile up this long, typically I wash my brushes every few weeks or so …. so normally this process takes me about 1/2 hour to 45 minutes. Because I have 2 months worth of brushes, today it took me a little over 2 1/2 hours to cleanse all the brushes.
When I cleanse my brushes I start with the face brushes, starting with the densest ones to the lightest ones. I then move to my eye brushes, starting with my fluffy crease brushes, moving to my flat shader brushes, then my brow and liner brushes. I find that if I work in this fashion always that I don’t have to switch out my wash basin water but maybe 4 times and all my brushes come out squeaky clean. I also find that since I use the strainer to scrub the brushes that not only do I take less time to clean the brushes it also takes less time to get my brushes to dry. Before I washed my brushes this way it would take about a day and 1/2 to 2 days for my bushes to dry all the way and with now it only takes about 6 or so hours for my brushes to be thoroughly dry.
I also mix a travel spray bottle with homemade brush cleaner … I use 1/4 of the bottle filled with Witch Hazel (the only thing I use witch hazel for), 1/3 of the rest of the bottle with 91% Isopropyl alcohol, and the rest of the bottle with fresh water. I also add a bout 2 to 4 drops of tea tree oil and 3 drops of baby body wash.
I use this brush cleaner to sterilize my brush handles before I put them away and I also use this brush cleaner to sterilize my brushes daily between uses.
I do own one of those dry brush cleaner sponges that I purchased at Sephora but I only use it when I’m doing a look that requires more brushes than I set out for the day …. I typically have 1 flat shader, 3 fluffy crease, 2 pencil, and 1 flat definer brushes… along with a fluffy face brush, a highlighter, bronzer, and all purpose utility face brush. So when I’m in need of using the same brush but for a different color I just simply run it along the dry brush sponge to knock out the previous color.
I chose to not do my makeup today to conserve my energy to clean my brushes but also that I can rest. Tomorrow I will be getting another round of Radiofrequency Ablation … I did a whole post on what RFA is you can read that here. I get this done every 6 months (in 2 sessions, the 1st one on the left hip and then the 2nd one on the right hip) and it truly has helped when it comes to the amount of pain I am in but because I’ll be getting it done on Tuesday I will be on bed rest the rest of that day and will be taking it easy on Wednesday to regroup.
Well that’s it for now dolls. I hope you enjoy the rest of your day/night and that you are in good spirits and health.
Hey doll hey! How’s your day/night going? Great I hope. Today I am not doing so well. I am in a world of pain, did not sleep well at all last night because I was up with pain most of the night, and I have absolutely zero energy.
Sometimes my walk with fibromyalgia leaves me feeling defeated. This is how I feel today. Very much like I’ll never be normal again.
All of my muscles are killing me …. it feels like I had a high impact leg and arm day at the gym on the same day and then got hit by a bus coming out of the gym.
My joints in my hands and the knees are so sore and making it very unable to do simple things such as hold my coffee cup and brush my teeth, not to mention walking hurt like a 1,000 knives being stabbed into them.
The fatigue I am feeling isn’t like a normal, didn’t get enough rest, fatigue. It’s like having a 103 fever, sick with mono, and haven’t slept in 3 days fatigue.
It’s days like this that leave me feeling angry at the world and angry at the traumas of my past that cause my brain to snap and create this damn illness.
I know I’ll never be rid of this illness (not unless they are able to come up with #1 a way to detect fibromyalgia, #2 a cure for fibromyalgia, and #3 a real defined reason that fibromyalgia suffers have contracted it) but it would be nice to just have 1 day …. just ONE that would be pain free (not low pain like most of my days are … I’m never without pain …. everyday (24 hours….1140 minutes …. 86,400 seconds of pain EVERYDAY)…. It’s just some days the pain intensity is much lower and I’m able to do things.
On day’s like today the pain is so intense that I really should check into hospital and get a pain infusion and Myers Cocktail (it’s a vitamin therapy treatment which enhances immune system, reduces fatigue, helps with seasonal allergies, reduces symptoms of fibromyalgia and asthma and contains magnesium chloride, calcium gluconate, thiamine, vitamin B6, vitamin B12, calcium pantothenate, vitamin B complex, vitamin C, and dilute hydro- chloric acid.) but I don’t because let’s face it the treatments are very fleeting and then I’m left with the side effects of cotton mouth and a nasty little head ache… not to mention an astronomical hospital bill.
So all I can do is keep bundled up with a warm cozy blanket, try not to move too much, and remind myself to breath until the pain levels come down some. For the fatigue all I can do is fight the need for sleep (since sleeping in the day only leads to more pain and the less likelihood of being able to fall asleep tonight) and limit my activities to the bare necessities: a simple shower… no washing of or fixing up my hair… no makeup for me… brush my teeth… fix my mother and myself something for breakfast…. probably skipping lunch to store up what little energy I can for to fix dinner…. and since I’m in pain it will be a laying down day for me.
It’s very hard to deal with on days like today but the part that crushes me the most is the isolation I feel on days like today, not that I’m very social these days because of Covid -19 (since I have an auto-immune illness I have to stay away from the world to keep myself healthy), but on days like today I realize just how much I have to do that I can’t do because I’m in a horrible flare.
I always try to remind my fellow spoonies to save a bit of energy for themselves … to be able to do something for themselves everyday to just give them a bit of spirit boost … it’s so important not to loose ourselves in the service of our loved ones because of these auto-immune diseases…. but we also have to know when to surrender to the illness so as to not cause our illnesses to progress further.
It’s just that on days like today it feels like I’ve thrown in the towel, like I’ve rolled over and given up, like I’ve laid down and surrendered for good.
I pride myself on always being able to do for myself… but on days like today there is NO way I can…. and unfortunately, ever since hubby’s hours changed, there is no one that I can rely on. I feel defeated today.
Well dolls. I’m sorry to write such a Debbie Downer post… I’m just so frustrated and so over whelmed that there is just no way for me to put a happy spin on today.
I’m grateful for my speech to text software because at least I’m able to still blog for the day … but I have this amazing makeup look I really wanted to do today and new products that arrived today that I really want to dive into … and I have to table table it until this flare ends.
Well, that’s all for now dolls … hopefully I’ll be better by tomorrow, in the meantime I hope and pray that you have a great rest of your day/night and that you are in good spirits and health.
Remember dolls … it’s OK to not have any spoons for the day … but on the days where you have some spoons …. remember to save one for a bit of lipstick.